Monday!!!!

It's Monday! Yeay.... Put kids shoes on wrong, fell down a stone wall, my ear hurt, migraine, dropped everything I had in my hands all day.. It's Monday!! Had to quit earlier to get Daughter to the child care center for a check-up and vaccine. She was sooo good! The needle was scary, but she was brave! I would have cried!! Haha! Couldn't even watch... Treated us wits a hamburger and ice cream at McDonalds afterwards. Got a mail from my mum... From Tokyo... I MISS HER!!! Mum!!! Come home, I have allot to talk to you about..... T__T

Tomorrow it's time for me to get a check-up... And I have so much to do right now... No energy and no time... And I feel sad, on behalf of others and my own. I hate that I bring in others pain into my own body and soul. But I can't help it, I don't know how to stop it. And I hate that I let other people get to me in a bad way.... All I want now is for everyone to be happy and everything to be over!
But I'm happy to have such good friends, family, daughter and boyfriend! I really love them all with all my heart and soul!

Yesterday I talked to my "twin sister/soul-mate" on the phone for almost 4 hours!!! When we talk time flies by!! I'm happy she is closer now, even if it's still a bit hard to see each other when ever we want to, but it feels better! Like I have a piece of my self a bit closer! ^_^ <3 LOVE YOU SIS!!

Well that's all folks!!

Pai!! //Teri

And the "best boyfriend award" goes to....

I really must have the best boyfriend ever! Yesterday (Saturday) my... Friend?... Let me down and I had to drink my wine alone. Panda didn't want to drink, but opened a cider for my sake.

Let me explain now.... I had a small "3-glass of wine bottle", I opened it do have a glass for dinner but I also bought it (and a few beers) to drink with my friend, who said she missed me 'cause we hadn't seen each other for a while. At first she was supposed to come Friday, but didn't come and said there is another day on this weekend..Then on Saturday she didn't even answer my calls or texts! And I had a small bottle of wine opened..... I was sad and mad and didn't want to drink alone and didn't want to pour out the wine, so my dear sweet Panda opened a cider that I bought for him to drink (with me and the friend). He didn't even like it, but drank it with me so that I wouldn't feel alone! THAT my friends is LOVE!!

I feel blessed to have him in my life. I know I sometimes tell my friends only the bad stuff and forget about the good stuff he does, the good stuff that is greater than any bad thing. He really is a great man! The best I've ever had! and I don't deserve him... Really! And I wait for the day when the bomb will drop on me... The catastrophic "make Teri's life a mess" bomb.... Anyway, I hope we will last a long long time! <3 No bombs...

Now he is having a bit of a hard time and I really wish I could do more for him.... I want to be the one he come to, the ones' shoulder he cries on, the one he fully trust.... The one to help him! But, I'm STILL not a superhero.... I want to be a superhero... I want to save the world.... Damnit.....

Well, I do my best! All I can do....

Have to go to bed now... Sleep away this two weeks.. I miss my Panda already, and we can't see each other in two weeks now since my mother and her husband is in Japan and can't take Daughter on Thursdays as usual.

Pai pai!! //Teri

Intense weekend!!

It seems like I always update about the weekends! But hey, who want to read about my boring life in the weekdays? Wake up - work - go home - have dinner - sleep....

This weekend have been intense!! I was free on Friday so Daughter and I went to panda on Thursday for a sleepover! Daughter had been looking forward to this very much! He went to work on Friday morning and we stayed for a while before we went into town to meet my friends. Walked around town and Daughter had fun with my friends! I love that she is a girl that loves everyone! <3
Went home in the evening and went to bed.

Saturday morning she jumped up on my bed yelling "Mom! Wake up! We have to go to the swimming school!!" Haha! Her first day!! She was so exited and happy! She did really well and had really fun. The only thing was, she was the smallest (shortest) one there and barely had her head above the water! hahaha!
Afterwords we had pizza and I left her at my mums' place. I went to Stockholm again and met up with my friends again. Shopped some candy and buns at the Asian market and went home to eat some dinner, play some games, sing some Sing-star and eat allot of sugar!!

Went to bed late and I had to get up early. Got to say good bye to some of the people that also woke up early.

Went home to pick up Daughter for swimming school, second day. This time I didn't get to watch... It was HARD!! I have to realize she is growing up. The we went home, she went to play with the neighbors daughter and I fell asleep... haha!

I asked her what she liked most about this weekend (except swimming school) and she said the best ting wast staying at Pandas' place! :)

Now it's time to go to bed with some zombies again! I'm still tired...

BYE!! Xoxo// Teri

Headache...

It's snowing again...... I hate Swedish winter... It never ends!!!!
I have been home for two days with a terrible headache.... On Sunday, in the middle of the night, I went up to get another pill that doesn't work and almost collapsed because of the pain. Felt like someone hit me in the neck with full force and it went black and my legs crooked for about 1 second. It was really scary! And before I fell asleep I thought "Maybe I will die and never wake up if I fall asleep now.." I was really scared!! But I woke up and I still had a headache so I stayed at home. Today it's better but I wanted to rest at home anyway in case it would get worse. I had to go out anyway to see my work-adviser and drop in some paper and get more confused  at the social insurance office... I hate all their paperwork! Gave me more headache... But now I think I'm fine actually! I hope... Just a little pain....

Dropped by a Vietnamese import store. They sell clothes and stuff both in store and on e-bay. Talked with the guy who works there, he and his wife owns the shop, for a long time. I found out this weekend his wife is a friend of my boyfriends friend! haha! So we talked about the shop and Vietnam and such. Daughter got to show off her Viet skills! "Ban có khóe không" hahaha! So cute! But he only knew one word, Ngon! It means  "tastes good" haha! So I learned another word!! :D Productive day!
Oh and this weekend I also learned to say "horse" and I laughed so hard!!!!!! Sounds like you are puking when you say it!! Ngựa... Hahahahaha! My sense of humor is extremely low.. I know...

Have to go... Take a rest and get daughter to bed... She have been very angry at me today because I "forced" her too clean her room... But I did most of the cleaning as usual and she only complained... No TV or games for a few days now....

Tam biêt!! // Teri..

Weeekeeeend!!

This weekend have been really nice! The week was slow and boring, so the weekend with Panda was welcome! Thursday and Friday was spent with just cuddling and movie and TAPAS!! First time I had tapas! It was good!! It was nice to take it slow. On Saturday we went to IKEA. We were supposed to buy only two things, but ended up with a full bag! As always when you visit IKEA! ;)
I bought new curtains, coat hangers, a heart shaped lamp for Daughter and some Bamboo plants. Panda bought a pink and a blue coffee cup, one for him and one for me (guess which one was mine? ;) hehe!) and blue and purple bath towels (same there, guess.. ;) tss..), new plates and some pillows.

This morning I was really tired.... Almost fell asleep in the shower, it was so nice and warm.. hehe! But it got better when I got out. Packed all my (heavy) stuff and went home. Didn't want to go, but I missed Daughter so much. I would like to have both by my side all the time! That would make me very happy... :)

So! I got pictures for you! This is my new curtains (and my bed with Teddy on it)....

The curtains are light brown, but they look white/beige on the photo. They really matches the wallpaper and they let the light in perfectly! And they were cheap... ;)

And this is my pimped kitchen! I got this Ivy in plastic from Panda and put it up on the lamp. And the cats' name is Ceacar. He is fat I know, but he is also old!! He gets to be fat.. ;)

It's a bad picture (From Instagram!) but if you enlarge it you can see it better! Maybe.. haha! xD

And this is a bit of the living room! The other part... Maybe I will photograph it later... When I have clead up a bit more.. haha!

The sewing machine isn't supposed to be there, I just don't know where to put it right now... And it is retro to have a fat-TV!! haha! And you can see my bamboo sticks beside the TV!! And some Vietnamese bean cookie/candy (the yellow stuff on the side), but you can't see it.. ;) Daughter loves them! And Panda loves to give her lots and lots of them... <3s

And yeah, I fell for the pressure... I got Instagram!! Teriswe - if you want to add me there!

Now I have to eat some more soup and then go to bed. I have a terrible headache... Not even pills help!!

Pai pai!! Or... Tam-biet! :) //Teri

"New" apartment!! :D

Lots of stuff have happened this week! I haven't had time to write. Got back to "work" on Monday. On Tuesday the painter called me and said someone had canceled their renovation and they asked if I wanted my wallpaper already on Wednesday! Had to rush home and get tings ready, take down all the stuff on the walls and move furniture. My little brother helped me out! Got home on Wednesday evening and realized we can not live like this and asked my brother if we could sleep at his place with the cats. Only one cat came, the other one didn't even dare to come into the apartment!! Stupid cat... Had to stay out all night.. Got him in the day after.
Went to Panda on Thursday as usual. Got home on Friday and found out I've got a brand new apartment! At least it felt that way! Refurnished and got stuff ready. Today, Sunday my little brother came and helped me get stuff up on the walls again. I hate having concrete walls... Had to drill like a bazillion holes!!

Now my living room is 50/50 living room/bedroom! And it looks kinda good! I only would like a wall between the bed and the couch... Like a folding partition in rice paper, it would fit like a glove in here!! :D
I think I made a good choice on the wallpapers! Looks really good! I'm sorry but I don't have any photos yet. I haven't had time to take any in daylight. Mum and her husband and my brothers came here today for coffee and when they left I was exhausted!!

The cats have adjusted I think and Daughter says it feels like we have moved to another place! haha! And yeah, it kinda does. It doesn't feel like a worn down apartment anymore. It's fresh and clean! And whole!! No wallpaper rolling off the walls!! haha! All I have to do now is wait for the kitchen cabinets and the benches to come, but for that I'll have to wait at least two months...

Have to get to bed now and watch "The walking dead" so I can have freaky zombie dreams again.. ;)

Oh and I love my brother for helping me out! Without him I wouldn't have made it!! <3

Pai pai!! // Teri