Oh the stupidity!!!!

I am watching "Cops" and "Speeders" on TV and it amazes me how stupid people are!

First: Why do drugs at all? And if you have to do drugs, why do you take the car and brake traffic regulations and get caught for both?
Second: Why do you try to run when you have been caught? I have never ever heard of someone getting away after getting caught! Ever! And trying to run while cuffed? WHAT ARE YOU THINKING!?!?!
Third: Trying to lie about not having anything on you... They will search you!
Forth: Why!?!?! WHY!?!?!?! Why do you even do things like this?

I get if you are poor and need to get money, but there is other ways.... I'm not the riches girl in the world.. But I don't steal, I don't do drugs, I don't do crime! But you know what? I fight! Not with my fists, but with my mind! My stubborn determent mind.

And "Speeders"... A bunch of teenage girls wearing no underwear, drinking beer in the car, getting pulled over and saying (Drunk as fuck): "Have I been a bad girl? Can I get a spanking instead of a ticket?" *FACEPALM* Or the ones that got away with a warning and still tries to argue about it....
 Oh the stupidity!!!!

Back to my reality....
I haven't updated in a while because I don't know what to say. In my last post I said life was all well and going forward. But as usual when I open my mouth the "shut you mouth and suffer bitch"- bomb drops on me!

But at least yesterday was a good day! The sun was shining, I was with my best friends and the love of my life (Yes he is!!) and we had a fun afternoon at the amusement park Gröna Lund in Stockholm! Me and Panda (Mostly Panda!!) are cowards and don't ride all the rides. I don't mostly because of my back and my heart.
Yeah I have a heart "problem". I have stress hormones around my heart that makes the nerves around it kick in and make the heart beat irregular and very fast/hard. Stress kills me and I'm stressed all the time....
Anyway... We had a fun time and Panda won a game slinging balls in a slingshot on a pile of cans! TWICE!! :D I'm such a proud Panda girlfriend! He got a large fabric flower with a smiley face! haha!
And this morning I didn't have to get up really early, so I could stay in bed till Panda woke up and had to go to work. We both wanted to stay in bed and cuddle. He is so cuddle friendly! haha! Soft and cozy! ^_^ Like a big baby!! hahahaha! Oh dear I love him!

And yeah my work practice is over... A bit sad, the kids are great and I will really miss them! And the personal too! I can only hope to come and work a bit now and then. And Daughter will be in that school so I will get to see them now and then! :)

Now I'm dead tired.... Have to wait for Daughter to go to bed... haha! Tomorrow she is going to a birthday party, my cousins daughter and Daughter's best friend! :) SOFA! Here I come!! ^_^

Pai!!//Teri

I heart life!

I have a great feeling about life right now! I think I have a plan of what to do with my life. Tomorrow I'm going to talk with a lady about a job during summer, I think I have decided to take the barista course in the autumn together with my bestie and then I will take another course to learn about how to become a receptionist/how to work with customer service. And if I can't get the summer job tomorrow, I will keep trying all summer. But I still have the plan for autumn! FIGHTING!!!
Finally some clarity in my life and it feels soooooooo goooooooood!!! Like a stone has dropped from my shoulders. I have never been this sure of anything.
And I'm happy in love, I have the sweetest daughter ever, the best of friends and the greatest family ever. How can I be so lucky!?  It feels too god to be true....

I want to show you some pictures. it's been a long time since the last ones.. ;)

My geisha princess with her Kimono from Japan.

3 of the best people in the world and a warm-bellied statue. 

Me today and my new YesStyle/Goodies "jacket" ^_^ 

Today Daughter and I had a nice day together. Fist we went to her swim class. She was so good. Then we went to my mothers house to have lunch. Afterwards we went to see a popular child/adult artist/singer called Sean Banan (Sean Banana). Daughter was very happy even thou we didn't see that much cause of all the people there. We also met up with her friend from daycare and her mother. We went together to a playground (Filled with snow and water!!). We talked allot while the kids were playing. It was nice, until the kids got all wet and cold and we had to get home. Now Daughter is coughing allot, I think her cold got worse. I was thinking about going home early tomorrow and stay home on Thursday so she can recover a bit. She is a fast recover.

I'm very thirsty.... And I have a headache... Drink some water and go to bed then!

PAAAAIII!!!// Teri

Duuuuuu duuuuuuu dumdumdum duuuu duuu dumdumdumd duuuuu duuu dudududuuuuuuh!

This week have been slow. Yesterday (Thursday) I went to Panda! Had a really fun evening, joking around and laughing allot! I really love being with him! :) But the time went by too fast and I fell asleep at 22.00.... I had to get up really early to go to work and when I kissed him good bye he hold me so hard. I didn't want to leave... :(
And today Daughter asked: "Why don't you two live together? I really want "Panda" to live with us"...

I  REALLY WANT IT TOO!!! But we are still fresh and we both have our reasons to stay where we are right now. He have a tiny apartment and his work is over there, so he can't move here. But I wanna......

And this week will be slow too.... One week seems like an eternity!! This Friday, next week, Daughter will be coming with me to work to meet her "to-be classmates" since her own daycare is closed. It will be fun! :D

Now we are watching Star wars! Daughter is asking every 5th second: "What are they saying? Why do they do that?" 5 year old's that don't know English probably shouldn't watch this things? ;) But she have nagged about it the whole week!
Well, I have to go to bed... Eehh.. The sofa.... ;) Live long and prosper... Or something... ;) (I know, it's not a Star wars phrase!!!)

Pai!! //Teri

Cuddles!!

Haha I just found this picture and I think it fits perfectly into the way we "cuddle" before we sleep! But just imagine him with a phone in his hand... ;)

Click it to enlarge! :) <3

Lots of love and laughter! ^_^

Lots of stuff have happened! Mostly in my mind. I have decided to take another path, to drop the childcare path and seek out another path. I think in the service business, like a receptionist, cashier or in a coffee shop. Barista would be really fun since I have this dream of mine, but I also have to be realistic. I have to think really hard now....

And I have met a "fortune teller" that also said the same thing I have been thinking about. The only thing she said that was weird was that my grandfather was the one talking to her, but she made him look like a silly man instead of the kind loving man he was. And that my grandfather said stuff I think he NEVER EVER would say, like "it will be alright", joke about stuff and most of all that my boyfriend and I will not last more than this summer, because I have "the love of my life" somewhere in the world. I think he would say something like "It you don't work for it, it will never happen", don't joke about my future and say that the most important thing is that I'm happy RIGHT NOW! Not talking about breaking up cause I MIGHT find someone in this world. She said something about finding someone that twill take my breath away, sweep my feet and such. Well, that's the feeling I had when I met Panda! And I have never loved like this before. Not even Daughters' father.... So, Go home fortune, you're drunk....

Now some funny stuff! I got my spring jacket this week! They delivered it to my work! I LOVE IT!!! :D

Buuuut of course, when I put it on more snow came... I hate Swedish weather. It's supposed to be spring now! And tomorrow the order I made exactly one month ago will come too! My skort, leggings and summer jacket! *Happy face*

This weekend I went to Panda, and yesterday (Saturday) we met up with my best friend/Soul mate/Sister and her boyfriend. First we had a latte and carrot cake in Wayne's coffee and waited for Panda to drive his parents home.

Then we took the tram out and went for a long walk from Djurgården in Stockholm into to the city. When we had to pee sis and I got into this disgusting public toilet and I scared the living crap out of both of us when we were supposed to get out. There was a little red button on the wall and I wanted to see what happened if you push it. So I told her to open the door in case we had to run! But just as I was about to push it the toilet automatically flushes and I get scared, scream and run out, sis screams and runs too without knowing why I screamed and then we laugh so much that we cried and I couldn't breath! Our boyfriends stood outside and looked like question marks wondering what the hell was wrong with us! hahaha! It was more funny to be there and live it... ;) We had a really nice day anyway, with people I love!
But in the evening I thought about the stuff the fortune teller had said and got sad. I know it's not true, I know how much I love my Panda, but I believe in this things and maybe in some way it could be true. But after hugging my Panda for a very long time and a few tears later I made up my mind. He might or might not be the love of my life, but he is the one I love right now and I love him very very much! And I want to be with him forever if I can! And when I told him what she said, he got mad! And said it's not true! I should not believe in things like that, and so on. I love him so much!! <3

On Friday my mother got home from Japan! Tomorrow we are going to have dinner with them as usual. It's going to be nice to have our old routines back! ;)

Panda and I have decided to start working out together. So when I'm there and live there for two weeks we are going to work out together! FIGHTING! :D

Now let's hope this awful snow goes away so that I can wear my nice new skort and my awesome spring jacket every day (Not the skort, but the jacket!)
And for those who don't know what a skort is: skirt + shorts = skort! ;) I really hope they fit. Asians are much smaller than I.... Haha!
And I have to say, YesStyle really is the best! Cheap and fast and when there is problems they work it out fast and politely tell you how sorry they are for causing you problems (I got 3 e-mails where they said they are sorry!!) And even compensating by bidding on the shipping fee! :D I really love them!! LOVE! I love allot.... I have a whole lotta lovin'.. ;)

Pai pai!! //Teri

Em nhớ anh....

Things is getting better! But I'm getting more tired... I have muscle pain and headache... The stress is releasing! And it's still cold!!

Today I'm starting my low carbohydrate "diet" and TRYING to quit sugar in form of bread and candy and so on. I have a severe sugar addiction!! And well, the sugar thing isn't going that well... I have had a few candies and a bit of dark chocolate (70% cocoa)... And bread... Dammit it's hard!!! But it's just day one! And it's allot less than I usually eat. And I'm trying to drink more water, cause I'm very bad at drinking the amounts you are supposed to, or to drink at all! And no I'm not trying to loose allot of weight, I just want to be more healthy and if a kilo or two disappears, that's OK! And I will try to start working out again... When there is time. And it's really hard to keep from eating candy when Daughter have 3 big Easter eggs filled with candy!!!!

I really miss my Panda so much right now. For so many reasons.... I feel so relaxed when I'm with him and I really need a big long hug right now. And I want to give him one too!

I made this picture for him yesterday! "Em nhớ anh" - I miss you... I wish we could see each other more often.. I will get two weeks with him in the end of July! :D I want July now!! It will be very interesting to live together for two weeks. ;)

On Saturday I will go to a fortune teller lady with my soul mate-sister and her mother! I hope she is as good as my old one. If she is, I probably will keep going to her to have my fortune told. ^__^ It's like going to a psychologist, but better! Even in the things being said are bogus, she is good at reading people and so on, it feels really good to hear something! It's like people believing in God, it's a comfort to have a protected future! Or something... ;) haha!

I have to go put Daughter to bed now! I miss my mum....

Pai!! //Teri

Useless post!

My mum goes to the other side of the world and a bomb with things drops over me... So much have happened, things I can't talk about with anyone. Well my best friend/sister  is someone I can talk to! But I still miss my mum!! ^_^

Easter has passed and it was OK! Had dinner at my dad on Friday and lunch at mein Oma (Grandmother on my mothers' side) on Sunday. Spent the night at Pandas' with Daughter the night before. Like having two children! haha! Poking, playing and arguing like siblings! hahaha! No I don't want another kid, I already have two.. ;) <3
Daughter got lot's of candy!! LOTS of candy!!

Today we went to see my grandmother on fathers' side. It was really a long time ago! We had cake with us and bought her dinner. I think she enjoy having us there and I feel sad I don't have enough time for everyone! Maybe I need a clone? Yes I need a clone... Too many relatives and too many (but wonderful!) friends!

It's still winter here. Even thou spring is slowly making it's way. This time last year I ran around in a skirt, picking flowers and wore nice cool shoes. Now i'm still dressed for winter, still snow and still minus degrees outside at night. I really hate winter, I'm allergic to winter! For real! I get itches and my eyes get runny... 

I don't know what more to tell you, since I can't talk about the things that have happened.. So....

Pai!! //Teri