Photos! New update!

I don't know why I don't update on weekdays. Maybe it's not fun enough? ;)
I don't have anyone to tell things about since no one is reading my blog! ;)

Anywhore....
Thursday May 9.
Went to my mother for some fun-time! Daughter played with the neighbors kid and painted a picture. I did too paint some! It was fun! And we found a toad to pet and instead of a daughter I got a Ninja Turtle Jr! ;)

TMNT!! <3 ^_^

It's nice that she have the same sense of humor as the others in my family! ;)

Friday May 10.
Went into Stockholm with my little princess to see the Sakura/Cherry blossom in Kungsträdgården. She was supposed to go to my mum/grandmother and she nagged about going there instead of trying to have fun in Stockholm. But when we met up with my friend N and she got ice cream she got happy!

Me and the sakura flowers!

The most beautiful thing in the world!
The only thing I managed to do right in my life! :') <3

When I dropped of Daughter with her grandmother I went out for After Work Beer with N. It was really nice in the sun. And warm! We talked about allot of stuff, mostly about Love! I need to find him a girlfriend!! ;)

Beer with my Brother/friend! AW!

When he went away I went home to my Panda. He was away and I had to wait. I got cold and tired so I went to bed. Woke up when he jumped in front of me! haha! Had a really bad headache and he said we were to go to to his friend. I thought "Oh dear, this is going to end in a party" and boy was I right! Luckily I know him and put on some fancy clothes.

Panda also bought a new car! Audi TT something. It's like a wet boy dream.... ;) he is so proud and happy about it. I tease him about it but I'm happy for him too! It's a nice car!!

My baby's' new toy! ^_^

But we took the car to his friend and had some drinks. Well his friends and I had some drinks. Panda drove.
Then we went to town for some party. Got let in on the side by the guards like V.I.P! haha! Danced and had a fun time together!

Party!!

OH! And Panda and I got invited to his friend's and his girlfriend's WEDDING! Finally a wedding and not a funeral! The problem is... It's in Poland.... Expensive traveling.... But a wedding! Have to look for a dress! hihihihhiiiii!!! Fun fun fun hand so happy for them!!

Saturday May 11.
Went for a PW that ended up being just a walk and subway riding. ;) But it was nice in the sun and at least I had a fun time (Singing and dancing and being silly while he was complaining! haha!)
Then we spent the rest of the day sleeping, eating and cuddling in the sofa. Well we took a ride in the car for a while before we went home, made some dumplings and went to bed.

Sunday May 12.
Today Panda needed to do some work at the restaurant and we went there before I had to go home. On the subway he took sneaky pictures of me, sent them to me and wrote "You are a hag, but a very pretty hag!" HAHA! Tanks allot love... ;) In Swedish it was "Du är en kärring. Mycket snygg kärring!"

Dork!!

I look like a dork in the photo! haha! Totally lost in my phone watching the NEWS actually. About the kidnapper in Cleveland. Creepy man... Little Fritzl Jr... Haha! Naah that was mean... Fritzl was a really mean man! He looked mean!!
We got to the restaurant and he started working, preparing stuff for tomorrow when it opens again. I helped by just standing/sitting/walking around there. ;) I'm such a helper! But he still made me sushi before I had to go home!
Got home to mum and Daughter and Daughter had gotten new stuff, a jacket, shoes, Hello Kitty hair strands and shorts. So Daughter was happy! We got home and had sushi. She doesn't like sushi, but Panda made tofu- and avocado sushi for us. And she ate it!! Now I'm really tired.
I think my apartment is an energy thief.... I always get drained out of energy and get headaches whenever I get home....

Now I have to clean up some...

 Love// Teri

Swedish celebration, Asian style!!

My neck is hurting so much right now.. This morning I got "stuck" with my arm up and when I tried to move it hurt like 100 knives shoved into my neck! I tolerate pain quite well, but this time I cried....

I don't like my life right now. Ever since work practice ended everything that could go wrong or trouble me- have... Tomorrow I'm having a meeting and I also have to cancel my dental appointment and find out where my money have gone to....

Me, this Monday. Before everything started!

In Sweden (and some other European countries) we celebrate something called Valborg.I think it's called Spring folk festival in English. It's a tradition from back in Germany where someone became a saint and the the Christians became witch hunters and burned witches on the stake. And yeah that's what we are celebrating... But nowadays it's a celebration of spring. Well, anyways....

Yesterday I went to my panda for some Fried Rice Asian party (Very Swedish, I know!) and I had a blast! My feet didn't hurt and I took a painkiller that actually worked so that my neck didn't hurt. I danced and had a fun time with my friends and my love. Met some new crazy people and it was very very hot although I didn't have much clothes on!!! But it was fun! :D

Me and my Panda!

And yes I have high heels on that's why I'm so frickin' tall! My legs look sexy in high heels... ;) seeexy!!! I had my cute little skort on! :D I really liked it!! Cuuuute! And seeeexy... ;)

And I have to put up a picture taken of us last summer, when we had just met and went to Skansen Zoo in Stockholm. I was so shy then! haha! And it tells in the picture! But you can also see... I was in love already! ;) Right?

L.O.V.E

Yeah I like to play with the pictures!! ^_^ But now I have to stop writing cuz my neck is killing me and I have to go to bed...

Pai!! //Teri

Oh the stupidity!!!!

I am watching "Cops" and "Speeders" on TV and it amazes me how stupid people are!

First: Why do drugs at all? And if you have to do drugs, why do you take the car and brake traffic regulations and get caught for both?
Second: Why do you try to run when you have been caught? I have never ever heard of someone getting away after getting caught! Ever! And trying to run while cuffed? WHAT ARE YOU THINKING!?!?!
Third: Trying to lie about not having anything on you... They will search you!
Forth: Why!?!?! WHY!?!?!?! Why do you even do things like this?

I get if you are poor and need to get money, but there is other ways.... I'm not the riches girl in the world.. But I don't steal, I don't do drugs, I don't do crime! But you know what? I fight! Not with my fists, but with my mind! My stubborn determent mind.

And "Speeders"... A bunch of teenage girls wearing no underwear, drinking beer in the car, getting pulled over and saying (Drunk as fuck): "Have I been a bad girl? Can I get a spanking instead of a ticket?" *FACEPALM* Or the ones that got away with a warning and still tries to argue about it....
 Oh the stupidity!!!!

Back to my reality....
I haven't updated in a while because I don't know what to say. In my last post I said life was all well and going forward. But as usual when I open my mouth the "shut you mouth and suffer bitch"- bomb drops on me!

But at least yesterday was a good day! The sun was shining, I was with my best friends and the love of my life (Yes he is!!) and we had a fun afternoon at the amusement park Gröna Lund in Stockholm! Me and Panda (Mostly Panda!!) are cowards and don't ride all the rides. I don't mostly because of my back and my heart.
Yeah I have a heart "problem". I have stress hormones around my heart that makes the nerves around it kick in and make the heart beat irregular and very fast/hard. Stress kills me and I'm stressed all the time....
Anyway... We had a fun time and Panda won a game slinging balls in a slingshot on a pile of cans! TWICE!! :D I'm such a proud Panda girlfriend! He got a large fabric flower with a smiley face! haha!
And this morning I didn't have to get up really early, so I could stay in bed till Panda woke up and had to go to work. We both wanted to stay in bed and cuddle. He is so cuddle friendly! haha! Soft and cozy! ^_^ Like a big baby!! hahahaha! Oh dear I love him!

And yeah my work practice is over... A bit sad, the kids are great and I will really miss them! And the personal too! I can only hope to come and work a bit now and then. And Daughter will be in that school so I will get to see them now and then! :)

Now I'm dead tired.... Have to wait for Daughter to go to bed... haha! Tomorrow she is going to a birthday party, my cousins daughter and Daughter's best friend! :) SOFA! Here I come!! ^_^

Pai!!//Teri

I heart life!

I have a great feeling about life right now! I think I have a plan of what to do with my life. Tomorrow I'm going to talk with a lady about a job during summer, I think I have decided to take the barista course in the autumn together with my bestie and then I will take another course to learn about how to become a receptionist/how to work with customer service. And if I can't get the summer job tomorrow, I will keep trying all summer. But I still have the plan for autumn! FIGHTING!!!
Finally some clarity in my life and it feels soooooooo goooooooood!!! Like a stone has dropped from my shoulders. I have never been this sure of anything.
And I'm happy in love, I have the sweetest daughter ever, the best of friends and the greatest family ever. How can I be so lucky!?  It feels too god to be true....

I want to show you some pictures. it's been a long time since the last ones.. ;)

My geisha princess with her Kimono from Japan.

3 of the best people in the world and a warm-bellied statue. 

Me today and my new YesStyle/Goodies "jacket" ^_^ 

Today Daughter and I had a nice day together. Fist we went to her swim class. She was so good. Then we went to my mothers house to have lunch. Afterwards we went to see a popular child/adult artist/singer called Sean Banan (Sean Banana). Daughter was very happy even thou we didn't see that much cause of all the people there. We also met up with her friend from daycare and her mother. We went together to a playground (Filled with snow and water!!). We talked allot while the kids were playing. It was nice, until the kids got all wet and cold and we had to get home. Now Daughter is coughing allot, I think her cold got worse. I was thinking about going home early tomorrow and stay home on Thursday so she can recover a bit. She is a fast recover.

I'm very thirsty.... And I have a headache... Drink some water and go to bed then!

PAAAAIII!!!// Teri

Lots of love and laughter! ^_^

Lots of stuff have happened! Mostly in my mind. I have decided to take another path, to drop the childcare path and seek out another path. I think in the service business, like a receptionist, cashier or in a coffee shop. Barista would be really fun since I have this dream of mine, but I also have to be realistic. I have to think really hard now....

And I have met a "fortune teller" that also said the same thing I have been thinking about. The only thing she said that was weird was that my grandfather was the one talking to her, but she made him look like a silly man instead of the kind loving man he was. And that my grandfather said stuff I think he NEVER EVER would say, like "it will be alright", joke about stuff and most of all that my boyfriend and I will not last more than this summer, because I have "the love of my life" somewhere in the world. I think he would say something like "It you don't work for it, it will never happen", don't joke about my future and say that the most important thing is that I'm happy RIGHT NOW! Not talking about breaking up cause I MIGHT find someone in this world. She said something about finding someone that twill take my breath away, sweep my feet and such. Well, that's the feeling I had when I met Panda! And I have never loved like this before. Not even Daughters' father.... So, Go home fortune, you're drunk....

Now some funny stuff! I got my spring jacket this week! They delivered it to my work! I LOVE IT!!! :D

Buuuut of course, when I put it on more snow came... I hate Swedish weather. It's supposed to be spring now! And tomorrow the order I made exactly one month ago will come too! My skort, leggings and summer jacket! *Happy face*

This weekend I went to Panda, and yesterday (Saturday) we met up with my best friend/Soul mate/Sister and her boyfriend. First we had a latte and carrot cake in Wayne's coffee and waited for Panda to drive his parents home.

Then we took the tram out and went for a long walk from Djurgården in Stockholm into to the city. When we had to pee sis and I got into this disgusting public toilet and I scared the living crap out of both of us when we were supposed to get out. There was a little red button on the wall and I wanted to see what happened if you push it. So I told her to open the door in case we had to run! But just as I was about to push it the toilet automatically flushes and I get scared, scream and run out, sis screams and runs too without knowing why I screamed and then we laugh so much that we cried and I couldn't breath! Our boyfriends stood outside and looked like question marks wondering what the hell was wrong with us! hahaha! It was more funny to be there and live it... ;) We had a really nice day anyway, with people I love!
But in the evening I thought about the stuff the fortune teller had said and got sad. I know it's not true, I know how much I love my Panda, but I believe in this things and maybe in some way it could be true. But after hugging my Panda for a very long time and a few tears later I made up my mind. He might or might not be the love of my life, but he is the one I love right now and I love him very very much! And I want to be with him forever if I can! And when I told him what she said, he got mad! And said it's not true! I should not believe in things like that, and so on. I love him so much!! <3

On Friday my mother got home from Japan! Tomorrow we are going to have dinner with them as usual. It's going to be nice to have our old routines back! ;)

Panda and I have decided to start working out together. So when I'm there and live there for two weeks we are going to work out together! FIGHTING! :D

Now let's hope this awful snow goes away so that I can wear my nice new skort and my awesome spring jacket every day (Not the skort, but the jacket!)
And for those who don't know what a skort is: skirt + shorts = skort! ;) I really hope they fit. Asians are much smaller than I.... Haha!
And I have to say, YesStyle really is the best! Cheap and fast and when there is problems they work it out fast and politely tell you how sorry they are for causing you problems (I got 3 e-mails where they said they are sorry!!) And even compensating by bidding on the shipping fee! :D I really love them!! LOVE! I love allot.... I have a whole lotta lovin'.. ;)

Pai pai!! //Teri

Em nhớ anh....

Things is getting better! But I'm getting more tired... I have muscle pain and headache... The stress is releasing! And it's still cold!!

Today I'm starting my low carbohydrate "diet" and TRYING to quit sugar in form of bread and candy and so on. I have a severe sugar addiction!! And well, the sugar thing isn't going that well... I have had a few candies and a bit of dark chocolate (70% cocoa)... And bread... Dammit it's hard!!! But it's just day one! And it's allot less than I usually eat. And I'm trying to drink more water, cause I'm very bad at drinking the amounts you are supposed to, or to drink at all! And no I'm not trying to loose allot of weight, I just want to be more healthy and if a kilo or two disappears, that's OK! And I will try to start working out again... When there is time. And it's really hard to keep from eating candy when Daughter have 3 big Easter eggs filled with candy!!!!

I really miss my Panda so much right now. For so many reasons.... I feel so relaxed when I'm with him and I really need a big long hug right now. And I want to give him one too!

I made this picture for him yesterday! "Em nhớ anh" - I miss you... I wish we could see each other more often.. I will get two weeks with him in the end of July! :D I want July now!! It will be very interesting to live together for two weeks. ;)

On Saturday I will go to a fortune teller lady with my soul mate-sister and her mother! I hope she is as good as my old one. If she is, I probably will keep going to her to have my fortune told. ^__^ It's like going to a psychologist, but better! Even in the things being said are bogus, she is good at reading people and so on, it feels really good to hear something! It's like people believing in God, it's a comfort to have a protected future! Or something... ;) haha!

I have to go put Daughter to bed now! I miss my mum....

Pai!! //Teri

Useless post!

My mum goes to the other side of the world and a bomb with things drops over me... So much have happened, things I can't talk about with anyone. Well my best friend/sister  is someone I can talk to! But I still miss my mum!! ^_^

Easter has passed and it was OK! Had dinner at my dad on Friday and lunch at mein Oma (Grandmother on my mothers' side) on Sunday. Spent the night at Pandas' with Daughter the night before. Like having two children! haha! Poking, playing and arguing like siblings! hahaha! No I don't want another kid, I already have two.. ;) <3
Daughter got lot's of candy!! LOTS of candy!!

Today we went to see my grandmother on fathers' side. It was really a long time ago! We had cake with us and bought her dinner. I think she enjoy having us there and I feel sad I don't have enough time for everyone! Maybe I need a clone? Yes I need a clone... Too many relatives and too many (but wonderful!) friends!

It's still winter here. Even thou spring is slowly making it's way. This time last year I ran around in a skirt, picking flowers and wore nice cool shoes. Now i'm still dressed for winter, still snow and still minus degrees outside at night. I really hate winter, I'm allergic to winter! For real! I get itches and my eyes get runny... 

I don't know what more to tell you, since I can't talk about the things that have happened.. So....

Pai!! //Teri

Monday!!!!

It's Monday! Yeay.... Put kids shoes on wrong, fell down a stone wall, my ear hurt, migraine, dropped everything I had in my hands all day.. It's Monday!! Had to quit earlier to get Daughter to the child care center for a check-up and vaccine. She was sooo good! The needle was scary, but she was brave! I would have cried!! Haha! Couldn't even watch... Treated us wits a hamburger and ice cream at McDonalds afterwards. Got a mail from my mum... From Tokyo... I MISS HER!!! Mum!!! Come home, I have allot to talk to you about..... T__T

Tomorrow it's time for me to get a check-up... And I have so much to do right now... No energy and no time... And I feel sad, on behalf of others and my own. I hate that I bring in others pain into my own body and soul. But I can't help it, I don't know how to stop it. And I hate that I let other people get to me in a bad way.... All I want now is for everyone to be happy and everything to be over!
But I'm happy to have such good friends, family, daughter and boyfriend! I really love them all with all my heart and soul!

Yesterday I talked to my "twin sister/soul-mate" on the phone for almost 4 hours!!! When we talk time flies by!! I'm happy she is closer now, even if it's still a bit hard to see each other when ever we want to, but it feels better! Like I have a piece of my self a bit closer! ^_^ <3 LOVE YOU SIS!!

Well that's all folks!!

Pai!! //Teri

Intense weekend!!

It seems like I always update about the weekends! But hey, who want to read about my boring life in the weekdays? Wake up - work - go home - have dinner - sleep....

This weekend have been intense!! I was free on Friday so Daughter and I went to panda on Thursday for a sleepover! Daughter had been looking forward to this very much! He went to work on Friday morning and we stayed for a while before we went into town to meet my friends. Walked around town and Daughter had fun with my friends! I love that she is a girl that loves everyone! <3
Went home in the evening and went to bed.

Saturday morning she jumped up on my bed yelling "Mom! Wake up! We have to go to the swimming school!!" Haha! Her first day!! She was so exited and happy! She did really well and had really fun. The only thing was, she was the smallest (shortest) one there and barely had her head above the water! hahaha!
Afterwords we had pizza and I left her at my mums' place. I went to Stockholm again and met up with my friends again. Shopped some candy and buns at the Asian market and went home to eat some dinner, play some games, sing some Sing-star and eat allot of sugar!!

Went to bed late and I had to get up early. Got to say good bye to some of the people that also woke up early.

Went home to pick up Daughter for swimming school, second day. This time I didn't get to watch... It was HARD!! I have to realize she is growing up. The we went home, she went to play with the neighbors daughter and I fell asleep... haha!

I asked her what she liked most about this weekend (except swimming school) and she said the best ting wast staying at Pandas' place! :)

Now it's time to go to bed with some zombies again! I'm still tired...

BYE!! Xoxo// Teri

The year of the snake!

Vietnamese new year was nice! At first I was very nervous, but having Mary and Hanna there made me a bit calmer because then I could talk to them and also my "brothers" were there.
The celebration was fun! I really liked the dragons performing. I forgot to take pictures of them... But I really like dragons!! hehehe! And last year was the year of the dragon, and I suppose they were "chasing away the dragon for the new coming year" or something. I don't know, cause I don't speak Vietnamese.... But it was pretty and fun! They also had competitions, like singing and modeling. And different  shows from Vietnam, singing, dancing and such. And the food!!! I have no idea what I was eating!!! Haha! But it tasted good! :)

A slightly edited photo of me at the celebrations.

The reason I was nervous about going there is that in Vietnamese (Asian?) cultures you don't tell your parents about having a girlfriend basically until the day you are getting married or having children or wen it's getting really serious. And Asians talk... Allot! And I wanted to try not to appear as his girlfriend (even thou Mary told someone... But I think she was a friend of them all...) and I thought he was joking when he said his sister and mother was there but he DIDN'T!! Being told about to the parents is a big deal! So yeah, I was nervous... I was there as a "friend".. :) (My own choice!!)

Then we went to k-pop party. It sucked... The DJ sucked, the bar sucked, the place sucked (Looked like a prison, an old movie theater) and my head hurt and I was really tired and then my feet hurt because my shoes was killing me... I danced to the stupidly mixed music like a crazed baboon, couldn't take it serious.. Haha! The most fun I had at that party. Baboon.... And of course being with my lovely darling twin sister Liss!!! But I feel bad for making her day a bit bad, since I wasn't feeling that well... SORRY SIS!!!! <3
Partying after a week of sickness isn't the best idea I have ever had.... But at least I was sober!

Now I'm back home and I have hugged Daughter so much she is now officially sick of her mother! And now it's time for sleep. First day at "work" and kindergarten in a week tomorrow.

Pai pai!! // Teri <3

Xin chao!

God damn that Candy Crush Saga game on Facebook! Addictive game....

I'm such a bad girlfriend... (But I think many would do the same thing!) Not supportive at all... Just crying and screaming, "Don't leave me! I'll do anything!" But if he want to go.... He will go... And I have to let him go... But until that, I'll try to be a better girlfriend!

Apparently we are going to celebrate Vietnamese/Chinese new year the 16th of February, going to a private party full of Vietnamese people. A bit scary actually... But he almost begged me, so I have to go! haha! I have a feeling I will feel very lonely, even if there is SOME people I know there. Well he promised not to leave me alone for very long moments. ;)
And then there will be k-pop all night long. K-pop club (nonstop) in Stockholm, right after the Viet new years party!
"Dress nicely" he said... -___-' What's nice in Vietnam? haha! I have to go shopping.... And get my nails done!!! :O And dye my hair!! Wow the pressure.....

I have such a strong pain in my neck and shoulder right now I feel like crying. And I always manage to carry heavy stuff or play too rough with the children, like today, I threw one kid over my shoulder... Big mistake! I can't even carry my handbag!!! If it doesn't get better in two weeks I'll go see a doctor. Maybe...

Today I got a call from my landlord! I will get a new refrigerator and fridge and new cabinets in the kitchen!! *Yeay* Finally! I have lived here for about 7 years soon and nothing is new. I will also get new wallpapers soon, I hope! haha! I will feel even more happy when the apartment is fresh and clean. Not like now, like a dump.. Wallpapers coming off and looking hideous...

Time is ticking, I have to take my soar neck and go to sleeeeep.....

Pai pai!! //Teri

My 50th post!

But I can't celebrate... I can't sleep. My stomach and chest is burning with worry and my hands are shaking. Not to talk about my brain going crazy! I have trust issues again....
It's strange how one fucking lie can fuck you up so much!

Thinking back, all the memories, all the hurting, all the pain, all the anxiety... Re-living it again... It's not fun and I don't want to!!! I can't trust anyone, not even my self sometimes.... I just want to cry, but this time I won't let my self do that.
This time, if this person is willing to fight to regain my trust, I will not cry! Instead I will try. I want to trust... But... One lie makes me think "What else is there that have been lies? Is ***** lying about something else? Have ***** done something ***** is lying about?" Well you get the picture.... Just one lie does this to me.. Just ONE!! One person is lying and I can't trust anyone!!
I have serious trust issues!!!

I want to tell you about something funny that happened... Last Thursday I was at Panda's and we were fooling around and playing, wrestling and stuff, in the bed when suddenly I thought there was a child laughing somewhere in the room. Surprised to find out it was me who was laughing! It was such a long time ago hearing my own real laughter I didn't even recognize it my self! I have gotten used to this fake laughter I have, almost thinking it was my real laughter, the way it was supposed to sound now. That's why I got so surprised. Sounding like a kids laughter and I was thinking about chattering birds, made me happy! Happy by hearing my own laughter! Haha!

Maybe I am as strange as people say (Mostly in a good way!?).. Ke ke ke! ^_^

But the same night as hearing my happy laughter, I got panic attacks... I was fighting them all night... Didn't sleep much... It's strange how the mood can change so fast!
The body is a mysterious thing, the BRAIN is a mysterious thing!! I don't get my brain at all!!! Do you?

Well I have too pee real bad now... And maybe try to get some sleep anyway. At least try some more....

Paaai paaaaaaaiii!! XOxo /Teri

My 2012, best and worst.

We have now come a few days into the new year of 2013. So I decided to make a summary of my 2012, month by month... "oh no.." I bet you are thinking, but it's only the best and the worst of every month! let's go!

January 2012.
Best: Got to work at a nice kindergarten for a while.
Worst: A barber cut my hair just before new year and it got OMG ugly and I cried for 3 weeks.... And my Cat got hurt again...

February 2012.
Best: Went to Paris to see K-pop Music Bank, 8 great bands live in concert! It was awesome!
Worst: Broke someones heart.... Stopped working...

Mars 2012.
Best: My first Fried rice (Asian party) party! Spring came...
Worst: Spring left.... Had a bad cold all month...

April 2012.
Best: Spring came back!!
Worst: My wash-dryer/hanger broke...

May 2012.
Best: Had lots of quality time with daughter and my dad turned 50! Went to Riga!
Worst: Gave up on love (Forever?)

June 2012.
Best: Midsummer with mum! Went on afternoon tea and Korean BBQ! SUMMER!! :D
Worst: Midsummer with mum and drunk uncle... ;)

July 2012.
Best: My 21st birthday again! :D Went to see my sis-Liss in Norrköping! Had more Korean food and Soju! NärCon 2012 (Convention)
Worst: What can be bad in summer? Actually nothing bad this month! :) Not for me at least! xD

August 2012.
Best: Met my dear Panda for the first time! <3 Fell in love! Went to Skansen.
Worst: Daughter got lice.... *Chills*

September 2012.
Best: Got together with my panda for real, became a couple! More Korean food with my lovely friends! Saw Nockelback live! First k-pop club i Stockholm opened!
Worst: Got a very bad depression... Got a very bad cold...

October 2012.
Best: My dear friend Elida came and I made her sushi!
Worst: It became colder, autumn... Still have a cold...

November 2012.
Best: Halloween party, started work practice, Daughter turned 5! <3
Worst: Went to the dentist.... Snow came... Still have a cold...

December 2012.
Best: Panda made fresh Vietnamese spring-rolls! WENT TO SEE BIG BANG LIVE IN LONDON!!!! :D
Worst: Loooooooots of snow and cold... Still have my cold....

This was my 2012. I hope 2013 will be even better and filled with happiness, love and money! ;)

I's been a while!

I has been a whine since my last post. My desire to write has not been there. I have been thinking about it some times, but then the energy to write just wasn't there. But here I am now and I will try to update a bit more.

What have happened since the last post?
December was cold as usual. I still have my work practice and I like it very much. X-mas was celebrated two times, once with my daughter at my grandmothers and once with my mother. Daughter was at her father this Christmas. It was lonely without her. New years I spent with some friends. My Panda was away in Poland and I missed him very very much. But it was a great new years eve! The year have started good, I'm happy with it so far. Panda and I are getting closer every day and I'm happy! I have the best of friends and the greatest daughter in the whole wide world!

Today it's really really cold. Minus 23 degrees. I really don't feel like going outside. But eventually I have to. I want spring now, so that the cats can go outside. They are driving me and each other crazy!! Woke up 3 times this night because of them roaming around the house like crazy!! And of course I want spring and summer so it won't take 15 minutes just to get dressed to go outside! And so I don't have to be so cold all the time... I'm not a winter person.

OH! And I also went to see the Big Bang concert in London! OMG it was totally awesome!! And London was really nice, and warm! Felt like spring!!

Long weekend!!

It's been a while.... But I have been busy and haven't had a computer to write on since I have been in Stockholm Thursday to Sunday! And yeah.... PARTY!!

Thursday: Fried Rice (Asian community) Halloween party! Pre-party at Pandas apartment. About 13 people in his tiny one room apartment! haha! But it was fun. Mary and I were schoolgirls as planed. here is a picture of our outfits! :D

The vampire bites didn't work... Had no time to dry and I always hit my arm and it got ruined while trying to get ready and dry it at the same time! But I became EMO and cut myself in the arm... ;)

Then we went to Fried rice. All I can say is.. Wow... The drama! haha! Jealousy and the beginning of a girl.fight.... But we danced and had a good time anyway! I don't like girls... That's all I can say.... They took some pictures of us, but they didn't published any of them, only one...

Remember to click the picture to make it larger and to see it better!

Friday: Panda (and I) made dinner for Tina, K and Mary. Had some drinks before we got to a pub, had some more drinks at the pub, had some Tequila... Well it all ended with me and Mary drunk.. Really drunk!
We danced on a tiny surface we called a dance floor, met some friends of Mary that were really nice! At least we had fun! Some more pictures!! :D

Haha yeah you can tell from the pictures! Thees are two of a few I people I love very very much, and yes Mary and I kiss all the time, no tongue.. ;) haha! Panda... Doesn't mind.... haha!

Saturday: Oh dear I was tired and hungover from the Tequila.... Slept almost all day long. Then we had to go to Pong (Thai restaurant) for birthday dinner. We ate so much!! It was a buffet and it tasted really good! Got wine, but didn't want it, but had to drink it since we payed for it.

After dinner I was dead tired and my stomach hurt from all the food... But people wanted do go see a movie and well, that's OK! But there were no seats left for us....  They decided to go Bowl instead, wish was fun, but I broke my nail and it hurts still and I hit the ball in my thigh when I was supposed to throw it... That hurt too! And then I really wanted to go home and sleep and I was mad because of some other circumstances but they wanted too keep on going. We went to Thai Tiger for some karaoke and some drinks. More Tequila came up... Didn't get that drunk! haha!

Sunday: We went to "Skogskyrkogården"  (The woodlans cemetery) to go see a friends fathers grave. It was a beautiful place and a bit mystical with fog and stuff.

I have always wanted to go there! Now I have! :)
When we were done we went into town and had some lunch, went to a flea market and then it was time for me to go home.... It was both sad and felt good to be home.

Today: I started my first day at work practice! I was dead tired staying up late yesterday worrying about not being able to sleep and worrying about oversleeping.... but I got up and I worked! :) It was fun, the kids are great and the personnel too!

Now: I'm going to take a bath and then go to sleep with a move! :) I'm really cold today.... And tired!

PAI!!

Vaaaampire~~

I have started to blog only every other day it seems.. But sometimes I don't have the energy to write. I'm really tired nowadays... But still full of energy! Really weird..

Yesterday I went to the doctor! I was really confused yesterday, I got there an HOUR EARLY!!!! And so I went to have breakfast in the cafeteria for a while. When I was done at the doctor's office I had to go leave some blood samples... But when I got there I couldn't do any tests cause I had BREAKFAST!! *Sigh* I will come back another day, maybe tomorrow.. But I can't eat in 12 hours...

Today we have done nothing. Have the washing machine running and later on we will go to my dear mother and have dinner!! :D
Then I just have to survive Wednesday and THEN: Halloween party at Fried Rice Scandinavia in Café Opera - Stockholm!! Lots of nice people and nice costumes! :D I will be a schoolgirl! At first I wanted to be a vampire schoolgirl, but the teeth didn't want to stick... So I might be a vampire VICTIM instead.. ;)
I will try some makeup, bite marks and so on, tonight.. :)

Maybe, if it goes well, I will do a tutorial or at least take a photo.. ;)

The laundry is almost done and I have to get dressed! I'm not really hungry yet, but I hope I will get hungry before we go!

Bai!

GAAAAHH!!!!!

I'm blogging from Pandas house! :D
He is at work and I'm sitting here all alone waiting for the tickets to be released. 25 minutes left....
Then, if I get a ticket I will celebrate by claning Pandas apartment... ;) Haha!

Yesterday I went to Stockholm to meet up with Joss and A for some lunch and "shopping"! It was really nice and even thou it was cold I think I smiled all the time! When Panda finnished work I met up with him. Got a text from mum "Your brother isn't comming for dinner, stay with "Panda"!" Had a bit bad consience but at the same time I got happy. I wasn't prepared thou and had to buy underwear! And I have no makeup here... At least I have a brush.. Haha! And a toothbrush!!

10 minutes left....

Yestrday the first snow came. And every one was like: "OMG SNOW! NOW!? WHY!?!?"
Well I'll tell you why...

WE LIVE IN FRICKIN' SWEDEN!!

Last year the snow came 2 weeks erlier than this year... And it all melted away today... That's how it will be for a few days, maybe weeks, now... Just get used to it!

Maybe I have to get dressed soon.... The weather is nice outside, thou I think it's very cold!!

The e-key isn't working correctly on Pandas computer and some keys are loose... Haha! The ,-key is missing!! haha!

4 minutes left.... I have butterlies.. No EAGLES in my stomach...
3 minutes.... I need to go to the bathroom, but I can't...
2 minutes...Need to text Liss...
1 minute... Gangnam Style is playing on the radio.....
NOW!!!!! THEY ARE RLEASED NOW!!!! Keeping my fingers crossed....... XXXXXXXXXXX

I need info.. What is happening...? But only 3 minuts have passed... I think she will call och send a text... I wonder if I wil cry as I did a year ago, when we bought the tickets to Music Bank!
THIS IS BIGGER THAN MUSIC BANK!!!

THIS IS BIG BANG!!!!!

Omg... Please say something....
I'm dying here....

Mum is texting me saying it's snowing at home! Daughter will be happy! :) Me, I don't like cold... And snow is cold...

Oh god say something!! I need to go to the toilet!!! Taking the phone with me.... :P

I'm done.. Haven't heard anything yet... This is like a live update, only you will read it later! haha!
I'm loosing hope.... I will not get a ticket....
Got an update... The paige is overloaded.. You can't do anything...Ina (I tink? Or Pei?) have come to "pick amount of tickets" but can't get further... I wish I hade skype on this computer!!
More updates: It might be a second concert!! The paige is... Like loading all the time cause of the amount of people trying to get tickets... V.I.P's are hardcor fans! They will KILL for a ticket.. ;) haha! And I'm a V.I.P!!
Ok.. Another friend says it's SOLD OUT.... :'( Hu hu hu.... But if there is another concrt maybe..... MAYBE... Gaah I'm dying...
Nothing...... Nothing.... No one is saying anything.....
My friend got a ticket for him and his friend... That means they are not sold out at least!!
I cant even eat my yoghurt.... My stomach hurts.... I'm trying to keep my hope up... But....

I won't be able to se this I think.... Don't know if I should start crying now...
I'm proud of the warroirs, trying to get us tickets!! Even is they don't.. I will be proud and thoughtful!

Well.... I think I have to close this for now and start cleaning and then go home and cry....


Pai pai....

Fighting!!

Is it me who have super high expectations on today's modern technology in movie making or is the movies getting worse..? Why does the special effects look like a video game? I just saw "Abraham Lincoln - Vampire slayer" and I almost cried from the bad affects... It ruined the whole movie!!!!
I do understand they want to make cool movies.. MOVIES!!! Not video games!!! But try to make them more realistic then instead of messing the whole movie up with bad effects! Geeeez!!

Hahahahahahahahahahahahahaaaaaaaahh....!!! xD

My day started out really really bad... But it got better! First my mother called and said she wanted to help me, then my Mary called and just talked and then I called Panda but he was on the bus and didn't hear anything and will call later.
I'm so lucky to have such wonderful family and friends who care about me so much! Truly blessed!

I will fight to get well! OK? For the sake of my daughter and my family and friends! And my own of course... ;)

Now it's time for re-runs! :)

Pai!!

My weekend.

Now I'm going to tell you about my wonderful weekend!
On Friday I got to my Panda after a nice day on town with Tindra and pizza-lunch. Panda had made me dinner! It was super delicious!! Suddenly people decided to go out clubbing. The place we used to go to was closed, but we found another place. It was OK, bad music...We got home early! :)

On Saturday we woke up a bit tired, but we got up and went to the store to play Lotto and went to the mall. Didn't buy anything but it was really nice just to walk around. Then we got back home to get ready for the evening dinner at our friends house, my Mary and Tina. Mary made an improvised Hotpot and it was awesome!! Me, Panda, K, Tina and Mary ate and had wine 'till we were really full. Then we got ready to go out for Thai Karaoke at Tiger!! Me and Mary got a bit... Drunk.. But we all had a really fun time, I hope! Tina and K went home early thou.... But we sang and had a great time!
Got home late, almost slept on Pandas shoulder on the way home and when we got home we got straight to bed. But before we fell asleep we heard a loud bang! Didn't go check it out, to tired....

The next morning we found one of Pandas frames who stood in the window had fallen down. Don't know how... But Panda had to leave to fix his car and since I was going home that day I stayed and got ready. It was sad to say good bye after such a lovely weekend. I was so happy all the time!

Today I felt like being struck by a professional boxer in my self confidence... I don't have the energy to keep fighting any more, I give up... Maybe it's for the best.... I don't know how I will make it through this day without crying all the time and I have lots of stuff to do.... I have 2 movies to see with Daughter. I hope she will like it. I have to make as much out of this time with her now.

But first it's time for lunch!

Bai....

Why I don't like girls!

Why do you even bother to reply my Facebook status trying to bully me when you can't handle being bullied back? It's like... "I can fuck you, but you can't fuck me" but when I do... And trust me, I will do it... It's like I am the one being mean... I will never understand bullying... *Sigh* And they wonder why I hate people? And girls...

I am going to tell you why I don't like girls....

• Girls are bitchy....
• Girls are fake...
• Girls are bitchy fake...
• Girls are fake bitches...
• Girls apparently doesn't settle with drama on TV, they also like real life dramas....
• Girls like making dramas...
• Girls gossip....
• Girls talk behind your back...
• Girls talk behind your back, literary!! (They stand behind you and backtalk you..)
• Girls are drama-queens...
• Girls don't have a sense of humor...
• Girls can't take a joke...
• Girls can't handle irony...
• Girls are always holding grudges...
• Girls likes to pick a fight (But are often too scared to actually fight!)
• Girls are always envious of other girls...
• Girls want to be the prettiest and sexiest and have the hottest guys... Instead of brains...
• Girls thinks being a slut is sexy...
• Girls thinks being stupid is sexy...
• Girls can't discuss without being offended...
• Girls can offend others, but cries when they get offended...
• Girls always get jealous of other girls... And start dramas.. And getting bitchy and offend people... And then they cry when someone defends them self... And walk away with a grudge and backtalk people...

Well yes these are some of the reasons why I don't like girls... Can I tell this to Daughter when she asks me "Mum, why do you have only guy friends?"

Well I have lady friends too! But they are special, they are REAL! Not fake... And they are kinda like me, like guys better too! ^_^  

And I have to tell you.... Girls don't like me either... haha!